Helpless

War and conflict and violence ravage our world. We don’t label them as world wars like before. There are too many sides. Too many different conflicts. Too many causes. Too many weapons. Verbal, physical, political.

Physical violence scares me the most. The though of those in unbearable pain. Images seen through a screen, too vivid for my heart to cope. I feel a responsibility to consume these images. But for what?

I’m helpless

Because I do not understand. Yet how could I possibly understand? To understand all these conflicts would be to spend a lifetime studying fear, anger, selfishness and violence. And for what?

I’m helpless

Because I am to weak to stand in protest. To travel to those in need. To care about all each and every conflict. To take on the burden of caring so much.

I’m helpless

Yet I am not helpless

My power lies not in protest, retaliation, or fighting.

My power lies in living and in prayer. My reposibility is to embody the energy the world needs. To be a vessel for heart energy to bring healing to the world. To accept that power is not all in physical actions. Love, joy, peace, compassion, forgiveness, kindness. These energies are my power.

With this I do not forget the great power that comes with protest, with donations to those who are physically supporting those in need, and with fighting for your values. When called to physical action, we must act.

Right now my mission is figuring out how to bring postivie energies into the world each day. How can I experience MORE joy? Noticing it’s presence. How can I share love with the world? Feel it in your heart. Connect with your community. Have compassion for yourself and for others. Be kind. Always. Allow yourself and others to feel the spectrum of emotions and feel compassion for them all.

Maybe one day I will look back on this and think I am weak. I don’t know if this is the right path. Ironically, I feel internal conflict. But the world only sees physical action as ACTION. We ignore the spiritual. The energetic. Society will tell me I am not doing anything. That I am, in fact helpless. But I choose to believe in the power and responsibility that we each have in the energy we bring to our own lives, and the interconnectedness of our energies across the world. So for now,

I am not helpless. I embrace my power.